'Twas the night before surgery ....

 .... and all through the house not a creature was stirring, not even the dogs. All the bags were packed by the door with care in hopes that the bag man would carry them all. Yep, that's about all I have for that. Tomorrow is the day. The day that with great hope and prayers that all my cancer will be out. Everything is ready to go except for my laptop which is what I am writing on. I'll pack that here in just a few minutes. I have had one of my pre surgery drinks. I have one more to go tonight and I have another that has to be drunk 4 hours before surgery. I have to be at the hospital by 5:00am. Surgery is scheduled for 5:30. How do I feel about all of this? Obviously I have some nerves. I am not nervous but I would be a fool not to feel something. This is a big surgery. It's life changing. There is so much that I won't be able to do. Lay down flat. Eat certain things. I'll always have some amount of pain. Nothing bad but they are shifting and moving around so much. And no matter what, getting all the cancer or not, this is really a battle that will never be over. You never get over having cancer. It changes your life. I am however so ready to move to the next step. So yes I am ready for this surgery. The recovery is going to be brutal but I am strong. I have too much support not to be. I have too many prayers not to be able to handle this. Now come tomorrow morning when I am laying on the operating table will I still feel this calm? I hope so. I really do. 

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