She believed she could, so she did. A cancer patient journey

 Where do I start? What do I say? Life isn't easy for me right now. Dealing with my recurrence has been difficult. Learning how to accept the new way I am going to have to live. Now I won't ever walk the way that I use to. Even think the way that I use to. Speaking the thoughts that are in my mind sometimes is difficult too. I have headaches all the time. All day long. Tylenol helps to limit it. I am trying every day to manage the days. Deal with each day as it comes. I know that how I walk and move around now isn't how I use to. I know that it will never be the old way. I go out almost every day and walk. Hoping that it will lead to me being able to walk better. I don't know if there is ever going to be a full recovery. I hope so. I hope deep down that it does. I also prepare myself for the fact that I will always walk with a limp and sometimes drag my foot. I am working hard on fixing that. I go to physical therapy once a week. She told me that my recovery is a year a...

 I've come here several times over the past two years and have talked about what's going on. I have tried to be honest all the time and in a positive mood. I still try that don't get me wrong. However ever since my second bout with cancer, this time has been much harder. My life has changed. I'm not the person that I use to be. I can't walk like I use to walk or even think like I use to. I try to stay positive and tell myself that things are going to be okay. I don't feel like that these past couple of days. It finally hit into me that who I was before I will never be that person anymore. I am seeing it more in myself every day and it is becoming hard for me to deal with. It's taking ( I'm sitting here trying to figure out the next word ) an emotional short on my mind. A horrible one. I try to stay positive and don't really tell anyone how I am feeling. I watch myself as I walk and I realize that I will never walk the way that I use to. I'll neve...