She believed she could, so she did. A cancer patient journey

 Someone posed a very good question today.  Did I feel trapped?  Both yes and no. I say that because sometime's I do feel trapped and other times I don't. I guess amid all of the pandemic and everything else yes in some ways I am trapped. At the beginning of the pandemic everything was closing down and you were limited on where you could go. Plus nobody wanted someone like me, and by that I mean with a compromised immune system due to the cancer, going anywhere in case that I caught the virus. I have been very lucky and blessed and I have not caught the disease. So in the sense of the pandemic yes I suppose we are all trapped.  If you are speaking do I feel trapped because of the cancer then I am not entirely sure how to answer that. In some ways yes because I am trapped here in my body with this awful disease. I can't just snap my fingers and it all be gone. Here I am dealing with this disease in my body, battling this cancer and that's not something that anyone oth...

 It's been over a month since my surgery. I should have taken the time to sit down and write long before now. Why I haven't I can't say. It may because I just haven't felt that I have had much to say. What to report. How to report everything. I suppose mostly it has been because I have been trying to digest everything that is going on. Just trying to get through each day. It's been a bit of a struggle to say the least. Obviously surgery was a success or I wouldn't be sitting here writing today. I spent six days in ICU and 12 days total in the hospital. I recovered much better than they expected and they were very pleased. The surgery itself was long. They removed all of the cancer but unfortunately since there was still cancer present in the lymph nodes that means some more chemo. My oncologist has been giving me some time to recover before moving forward with treatment. She isn't exactly sure what she wants to do but she is a good oncologist and will figure...