T minus 2 days till round #2 of chemo

I am only a few days away from starting my second round of chemo treatments. This time it'll include radiation. I met with the radiology oncologist and had my napping CT scan done and my little blue radiation tattoos. I am waiting on word from the doctor after he looks over everything for final word on what approach they are going to take. The nurse told me today that they have two different treatment options they are looking at for me. He wanted to review my most recent pet scan and then would decide which plan would work best for me. I start my chemo on Monday. It's a different one from before. I'll go once a week every Monday. I don't know how this one will effect me. Then once I start radiation I'll go Monday-Friday for 25 sessions. He told me that I may have some slight pinking of the skin, may be a little sensitive. I might get a cough and shortness of breath in my lungs. He said the most severe would probably be the sore throat that I'd end up with. I'll also get fatigued. Of course this is all expected. I just hope that this all works out for the best. I have been trying to take this week and get the decorating of the house out of the way. I've spent most of it painting the living room. It came out really nice. I just have to finish the trim work. I ordered curtains and rods that come in on Monday. This is what happens when I am out of work and trying to keep myself busy. Just to keep my mind off of all of the other things that are going on. All the other stresses in my life. Unnecessary stresses truthfully. I worry a lot about going back to work when it's time. If I am going to even have my job to go back to. If I even want to go back there if I had the job still. I feel like something has changed. I don't know if I feel the same way about it as I did before. I've been thinking a lot about working from home. I know I still have a lot of time to figure that out. No decisions have to be made today, or tomorrow. 

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