The unemployment side of cancer

I've been out of work since March 20th. My boss decided that I needed to concentrate on my health and worry about me first. It worked out because during this time we have been dealing with the whole covid-19 and I was suppose to be able to get unemployment. I was denied the first time and approved the second time but have been waiting on getting the funds. It's very frustrating because I have been relying on my parents for everything. My dad has been paying all my bills for me and giving me any spending money I might need. I hate asking because already he is doing so much. Both of my parents have and so has my stepdad and stepmom. I've started selling things that I am not using anymore around the house for extra spending money just so that I can have something to do. Right now I have been working on fixing up the house. Painting and what not. That way I stay busy and keep my mind off of being so frustrated that I don't have any money coming in. I am hoping that'll change soon. I am really hoping that tomorrow morning I look and have money in my account. This is just one of those downsides to having cancer and what you have to deal with when dealing with it. Part of me wants to go back to work so that I can have money coming in and the other part of me says I still can't handle working a full day. I still get pretty tired easily. I know that eventually I'll regain my strength but in the meantime I am very limited on what I can do. So if anyone wants to support the Brooke needs fun money... Please do! 

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