'Twas the night before chemo

'Twas the night before chemo when all through the house not a creature snored..not even the dogs.

That's how I imagine the beginning of the book would start if I wrote a book based on the night before a chemo treatment. For me the day before chemo is a busy day. Mostly because I know how I will be for the next several days. Either A). spending quality time with my bed or B). My face spending quality time with the toilet. Either way.. The next several days are going to suck. I won't have much energy to do much of anything. I'll binge watch some shows. Right now it's The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel. A pretty good show actually. It's on Amazon Prime for any of you who didn't know. But the day before my chemo treatment is spent getting any of the things I need to get done because like I said, I won't have that much energy. Today was no different. Here's a recap of my day:

7am: Woke up to Bailey wanting to go out. I tuned her out because let's face it.. 7am was WAY to early for me. 

8am: I lost the battle with Bailey. I was forced to get up and let her and the rest out. She did her mad woman dash at the back door. She enjoyed some time outside with the rest while I enjoyed some OJ and a breakfast hot pocket in peace. 

9am: I decided it was my turn to torture the dogs and give them bathes. Okay not really torture. Lucy was torturing me with her stench. So I dragged out the hose and gave her a bath and took her for a walk. While she did not enjoy the bath ( and got me back later with rolling in the dirt outside) she did thoroughly enjoy the walk that she went on. Sandy was next. Sandy is used to me torturing her with the bath. She gets one about once a week to help with her itching. By the time I was done walking Sandy I realized that I was losing energy and knew that I wouldn't be able to give both the other dogs a bath and walk so I opted to just give the other two a short walk. 

11am: Changed my bed sheets, cleaned my room, and did laundry. 

12: My car currently looked like a love bug grave yard. Even after being washed. So I took it to the self wash and gave it a good wash. Now I only have little specs of the poor innocent love bugs left splattered on my front end. I had to make a quick stop at Mcdonald's because if I dare walked in the door after a morning of giving dogs bathes without their Mcdonald's treat I'd have surely been attacked. No joke. 

After that it's been little things here and there. Folding and putting laundry away. Preparing little things for the next few days. Feeding the dogs. Like I said.. the downside to the chemo treatment is that the next several days I'll be tired. But let's hope that this is my last chemo treatment. I know that it's the last before my surgery. I need a month off before surgery to ensure that my cells that help healing have time to regenerate to help my body heal. 

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  1. Blue to Red to NothingMay 13, 2020 at 5:41 AM

    Sending all my love from England, Fingers crossed this is your last chemo treatment. I hope it's your last and they can get the cancer out, don't give up! I would like to be your friend to. <3 <3 (thank you for your encouraging words on my post) x

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